Weight Loss and Illness

So, I am at my lowest weight. I am not very excited about it though. This is because it came about with me becoming terribly ill. I am still sick with the same thing from last week. It makes me wonder if and when I get healthy again, will all this weight come back on? I am not too sure. I remember last time I became sick, I lost weight and did not gain it back. We’ll see. My illness has given me more incentive to follow a strict diet void of sugar, fats, and processed foods. I just need to get my stress levels down which is difficult to do. School, potential volunteer opportunity, work, moving, internship starting in May, and i’m still feeling sad about cutting off contact with abusive family members, all of this is swirling in my brain and it’s difficult not to feel stressed out.

My illness has also made it difficult to exercise, which was a major stress reliever for me. The pills have caused me to eat way less than usual and since I am not digesting all my food properly I feel tired and foggy a lot of the time. This makes me feel less confidant in the things I am doing throughout the day. I am hoping to get some more answers from my Dr. next week. I just want this to be over with.

Here is last week’s stats:

4.25 active

still light on activity. Sunday, I made an effort to spend half an hour on wii fit doing light aerobics to help alleviate constipation I have been having as a result of my medication. Monday Paul and I took a trip to our local zoo and spent a couple hours there. The zoo was very helpful, not only in giving me physical exercise, but in preoccupying my mind and helping me feel less stress. Not a one negative thought entered my brain.

4.25 cal

My goal is to get at least 1,300 calories in a day. Most of these days were not too bad. Three of the seven I met this goal with one day a little below. With GERD not eating can be as bad as eating too much so I am trying to find ways to eat small meals with healthy foods while excluding high fat and sugar options, and getting enough calories before 6:30 pm. I have been relying a lot on animal meats to help me feel full. It is sort of a double edged blade though. The protein is good for my body, especially since I am not being very active and needing to heal, it is also nutrient and more calorically dense than veggies and makes me feel full, however it also slows down the digestion process , preventing the stomach from emptying quickly which can cause reflux. Same with Oatmeal with its high fiber content however I need high fiber to help keep my bowels healthy at this point. Hopefully a dietitian will be able to clear a lot of these questions for me up about what I should and should not be eating.

4.25 exercise

very little exercise. I haven’t felt the urge to exercise too much but I know I should to help keep things healthy and moving. Exercise is also helpful in managing GERD although I think this has more to do with people who suffer from GERD tend to be overweight or obese. I am neither any longer but damage has been done. Perhaps my BMI is “healthy” but in reality, my body fat composition is high and causing these issues. Something to talk about with the Dr. and Dietitian. Perhaps there is someone I can see about creating a plan to lower body fat to aid me in managing GERD.

4.25 fiber4.25 sugar4.25 water

I added a new element to track; water. Not having enough water to compensate for high amounts of fiber have a constipating effect. I never want to experience constipation again so I am tracking my water and my fiber like my life depended on it. It is easy not to overdo sugar when I can’t have pre-made foods.

4.25 weigth

My lowest weight. I do not feel it is my true weight though. I don’t think losing 5 lbs in a two week span is healthy for someone at my height and weight. I am technically within the “normal” bmi range and for me, the extra weight is more so for aesthetic reasons. Perhaps there are still health benefits to be had by dropping this last 15 pounds. Maybe at this lower weight the GERD will not be as bad? I don’t know. I just have to wait and see what the health professionals tell me.


This post is overdue. Last week I mentioned being sick. This week was worse. This was the sickest I have been in about two years when I was first diagnosed with Gastroesophogeal Reflux Disease otherwise known as GERD. It made me realize that last week was just the preamble to the pain I would experience this week. Long story short, I started vomiting around 2:00 am Sunday morning and it did not stop until around 6:00 pm when I took the anti-emetic a doctor prescribed to me over the phone. I was dehydrated from vomiting up water and of course, not being able to drink water, could not keep down food. I only ended up eating a bit over 400 calories that day which was an overestimate because I only took three bites of the oatmeal I made in the evening because I was still in pain. The pain steadily decreased due to my new regimen of medication. I take five types over the course of the day 10 times.

The pain has subsided but my throat is tight and it feels painful to speak. On top of all this now I became horribly constipated. This was not mere constipation, this was me thinking I was dying constipation. As a person who has been formally diagnosed with Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder I feel safe in saying that this constipation experience has traumatized me. I will not get into the dirty details because, frankly, I wish to forget it.

I won’t completely forget it though because I am going to do everything within my power to ensure that I am never constipated again nor suffer a horrible acid attack.

I decided to completely re haul my diet. I have an appointment with my Dr. and a dietitian in the next three weeks to talk about what exactly I need to do to make sure these things never happen. I am going to get back into exercise and lose these last twenty pounds to put me squarely in the healthy weight category.

I am determined to get better. That being said in the interim I have decided to focus on a diet of veggies, fruits, and lean proteins. I started eating animal meat which I hadn’t done in a very long time. I experimented with turkey bacon which made me feel quite good. Next I will try chicken. My protein sources will most likely be chicken, tofu, and turkey. I don’t know if I want to experiment with shellfish or not but perhaps. Of course all the fruits and veggies I have not had adverse reactions to in the past.

Anyways, here is last week’s stats:


4.21 active

Activity has gone down substantially since I started to feel sick. I have had little energy.

4.21 cal

My calorie intake had not been too bad except for Saturday night, the night before I had the terrible acid attack. I started to get to the point now when i’m happy I manage to get 1,300 calories into myself. What sucks is that my weight is still higher because of the bloat and constipation from not being able to digest my food properly due to all the medication I am on.

4.21 fiber

My fiber intake had not been very great the last three days of this week. I have been mindful of it though since I started to suffer from constipation.

4.21 sugar

The high intake of sugar was due to the smoothie from Jamba Juice and the popsicles I have been eating to soothe my throat and get extra calories into myself.

4.21 weigh

152.3 is the lowest weight I had been. Got there from not eating though so not really a true weight. My weight had gone up since then despite eating between 950-1100 calories most days. I am sure this is due to constipation and bloat. I am worried that after I stop the medication on Monday that the pain will come back but I am hopeful that it won’t. I know without stomach acid I cannot digest food properly or absorb vitamins and mineral like I should. I think this is why I have gotten so sick so often since being diagnosed with GERD. I have been on proton pump inhibitors and having difficulty with my digestion. Constipation has never been an issue until now, but things are not going well for me and I know I have to make a permanent change if I want to be healthy.


Until next time



Sick Today

…and it sucks. I have actually been sick for three days now. Missed my classes and an appointment I had because I was so terribly nauseous and feeling feverish. Paul and I went grocery shopping for fruits and veggies though to get my diet back on track. He pointed out that our bill was only $50 or so dollars this week when last week it was $70. Pretty much when I am eating a diet of whole foods rich in fruits and veggies, the bill is cheaper as opposed to a diet of dairy and processed foods. I feel it too. Despite doing a pretty decent job on calories last week my weight rose. It started to come back down but I think all the processed, salty foods have been bloating me up. I have also been sorta sick and adjusting to a new schedule as well so my exercise routine is out of wack.

Here are last week’s stats:

4.11 ACT

Rose my goal to 400 calories. Didn’t so so well last week. Probably won’t hit my goals this week either because I don’t know when I will feel better. Better to take it easy though than to go full force and  be sick when I HAVE to be somewhere or DO something.

4.11 CAL

My calories weren’t too bad this week. I am going to be more careful this week about scanning items with my phone and comparing the calorie counts in MyFitnessPal data base as well as eating healthier overall.

4.11 EXER

Exercise was alright this week. Not amazing but not non-existent. This week just depends on how I feel. I might not exercise at all this week. We’ll see though.

4.11 FIBER

I wasn’t trying to hit my fiber goal last week. I didn’t even think about it so I am pleased that when I tallied all the numbers up I did a pretty good job.

4.11 SUGAR

I was surprised about how well of a job I did with sugar too this week. I was keeping an eye on it but there were days when I didn’t really care. I sort of just flew by the seat of my pants and stayed away from foods that were typically sugary. Compensated by eating a lot of salt though.

4.11 WEIGH

Gosh!  I know it isn’t a great leap from 153 to 156 but I hate being on this upper end of normal on the BMI. I am so close to my 136 goal. I am hopeful that this week I will get it back to 153 by the time I post again.


Until next time peeps.


Checking In

This is my first week of school and it always feels so busy and nerve wracking. My least favorite thing to do is introduce myself in front of the class. I don’t know why professors insist on doing this. I suppose it fills up time. God forbid we may get out a little early. Note my grouchy tone. This is because I have become addicted to sugar once again and am trying to cut it out. I also have a four hour class tonight that starts at 5:30 and ends after 9 pm. This makes me incredibly unhappy. It’s required though and if not now then I’ll just have to do it at a later date. Here is last week’s stats:



4..4.17 exercise

Upping my exercise again. I do feel better when I exercise and have been getting in the habit of doing it first thing in the morning. This is when I have the most energy and feel my most positive. Gonna keep up with this.

4.4.17 act

Failed to reach “340” three times this week. Despite this I upped my goal to “400” calories. I am done with “340”. Having this “400” goal motivates me even more to get in my exercise in the morning.

4.4.17 cal

This hasn’t been the best week for eating. I have been eating lots of junk. Paul and I went shopping yesterday and I bought food to make meals with to help me get my sugar intake and calorie intake under control.

4.4.17 fiber

My fiber intake was not too bad this past week. Gotta keep aiming for that 25 g goal.

4.4.17 sugar

I have not been doing well with handling my sugar. I am moody, breaking out, easily frustrated, and tired all the time now. This week will be tough but I am going get a handle on this sugar thing again.

4.4.17 weight

As my sugar and calories go up so does my weight. 153.0 lbs is my lowest weight I have been at. Hopefully I can get back down to it quickly this week with eating healthier.


Until Next Time,